Trial and Improvement.

"Miss, do you have a valentine?"

"Miss, are you married?"
"What's that got to do with you?"
Now I'm feeling harried!
Trial and improvement could describe my life,
What's it matter to these kids whether I'm a wife?
Am I too defensive? Am I being crabby?
Will their parents phone me up,
Complaining that I'm shabby?
I used to hate Mathematics
When I was at school,
But since I've been an adult
Numbers rule.
The kids don't see things my way,
They're inquisitive, alive, 
They see me as a person,
I should relish that and thrive.
Instead I field their questions
To keep their probing out,
Because cancer killed his love for me
And drove all passion out.
I don't speak as a victim, 
I've never thought that way,
I speak as a survivor
Who's lived to fight another day.
He used to say, "You're worth it,"
He used to love me true,
So please don't ask me questions
That cut me through and through.


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If Only Life Were Simple.

Feeling dizzy, feeling giddy,
Feeling like some poor old biddy!
It's some virus, sent to try us, 
Feeling fed up, feeling het up.
Chill! Relax! Sit down here,
Don't do anything stupid dear.
Is this my life, total strife,
Something always giving me grief?
Way too negative, must be positive,
Exasperated just because it is
One step forward, two steps back.
How much longer can I hack this?
Stand your ground girl,
Turn it around girl,
You can do this!
No, don't take the p*ss.
Feeling cold now, 
Looking old now,
Feeling freezing, 
Asthma wheezing.
Jacket on, scarf on, 
Where's the warmth gone?
Tired and lonely,
Oh, if only
Life were simple.


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The Voice In My Head.

The voice in my head said, "Cut the skin!"
I imagined the scissor blade press in.
If I cut the skin, will it take this out?
Will it take away the fear, the doubt?
Should I drink instead? Would that clear my head?
Of all the sadness? All the madness?
I had cancer. Nothing to see.
What's left now is a shell of me.
Cancer's hard, it takes your soul.
It sucks you dry, it leaves you old.
It numbs your heart and leaves you cold.
Cancer stalks, it lures you in.
The voice in my head said, "Cut the skin!"


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Cancer and Depression.

 'At the lowest point recently I felt that I've lost everything.'

Cancer is an emotional rollercoaster and those emotions are not always a positive, grateful or even euphoric sense of relief at getting through it. Or, if they are, the high can be followed by a low. It is probably more common than people realise that cancer and depression go hand-in-hand, both for the patient or those close to them. 

According to Macmillan, symptoms of depression can include:

• waking up early, having difficulty sleeping, or sleeping more than usual

• smoking or drinking alcohol more than usual

• crying a lot

• having difficulty remembering things

• having a very low mood for most of the time

• being unusually irritable or impatient

• getting no pleasure out of life or activities you usually enjoy

• feeling a loss of affection or sexual desire

• finding it hard to concentrate or make decisions.

If you think you might be suffering from depression, the advice from Macmillan is to speak to your doctor or nurse as a starting point to get appropriate help.

Depression - Cancer Information - Macmillan Cancer Support

www.macmillan.org.uk

Find out about depression, an emotional effect of cancer

Love Rose x

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More Good News.

I hope Alicia over at Uterine Cancer Awareness in the US won't mind me telling you that UCA is to be honoured by Society of Gynecologic Oncology (SGO) with their One Team One Goal Advocacy Champion (North America) award. 

It's good to see womb/uterine cancer being recognised in both the UK and the US!

Love Rose x

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Good News.

Yesterday was a very good day over at Womb Cancer Support UK. Yesterday was the day when Kaz and Debra found out they're going to be honoured by Society of Gynecologic Oncology (SGO) with their One Team One Goal Advocacy Champion (Europe) award. 

Excellent news indeed!


Love Rose x



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Finding Me...

It's a cold, grey afternoon where I am here in the UK but at least it's not pouring with rain, or snowing, so that's a bonus!

One of the things I've always done throughout my recovery is wear my peach wristbands to try to help raise awareness of womb cancer. Over the entire time I've been wearing them I've had only three people ask about them and one of those was the Doctor carrying out my most recent check-up at the Oncology Clinic!

After a lot of thought, my resolution at the start of this New Year was to go about trying to find me again. So I've stopped wearing the wristbands. Hopefully all my peach sisters will understand my need to re-define myself.

Love Rose x


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Are You A Carer?

I am lucky enough to still have both my parents with me. When I was ill with womb cancer my mother was my primary carer. Unfortunately, she's been unwell for the last three weeks and our roles have become reversed. This set me thinking about what help there might be for long-term carers and I'd like to share with you some links for useful sites I've found:

 

http://www.carers.org/

 

http://www.carersuk.org

 

http://www.ageuk.org.uk

 

http://www.carersireland.com

 

http://www.mind.org.uk
 

http://robcares.com

 

 

Love Rose x

 

 

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Happy New Year!

Here's hoping 2013 is a happy, healthy and peaceful year for all.

Bonne année et bonne santé!

Ein gesundes, neues Jahr!

Blwyddyn Newydd Dda!
     
Prospero Año Nuevo!

Feliz Ano Novo!

I hope I haven't missed out anyone, my best wishes to you all. 


Love Rose x



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